...because i am full

there is no other way to describe it. and i am not full in the "i just ate two big macs and some fries" full.   instead, i am overflowing with every possible positive word you can imagine.  its not because my life is perfect, or because i have enough money to buy everything i want.  it is because i choose happiness.  and while i am striving to get to where i aspire to be, i am also content with where i am at. my day was full of meaning because i had the opportunity to do every single thing that i love all in one day. i woke up at 5 am (huge personal accomplishment) and spent the morning at my internship.  to describe where i am interning as "inspirational"  just wouldn't do it justice.  i guarantee i am learning more from the clients than they are learning from me.  i listened to stories of struggle, of the process of overcoming.  of persevering.  and today, one particularly quiet man decided to speak.i listened to people in recovery, of struggling to become sober. i heard good people talk about their 'not so good habits,' and i witnessed them putting their best foot forward trying to change.   and i couldn't feel more complete.  although i do not have my "real job" yet, i feel blessed to wake up every morning doing exactly what i love.  it hasn't always been like this. but it is so rewarding to finally see and feel  things coming together.  i understand that sometimes it is not that easy, but the point is to stop wasting your time doing things that don't fill you up.  i had to leave my internship early to go to a mandatory meeting for school.  and although the meeting was uneventful, i decided to enjoy it anyway.  because when it comes down to it, i truly love learning.  i love challenging myself, expanding my horizons, and finding new perspectives to life.  i also feel fortunate to have the opportunity to attend college; so while i may sometimes hate the homework, tests, or just school in general, i also do my absolute best to not take it for granted.after the meeting, i left campus to go pick up the girl i mentor.  it makes me happy to see how much she has grown over the past year.  i ate dinner with her siblings and foster family and then played tea party with her precious 4 year old sister.  no matter how busy you are, you have to take time to play.  it's okay to still be a kid sometimes : )  we went shopping, and because it gets dark so early, we took time out to look at the stars.  we got milkshakes and giggled like teenage girls, because i believe its always okay to be a little bit silly.   

after a 14 hour day i got to come home.

and while i am so ridiculously tired,

my heart is full.